i’m quite difficult to love, you know. i exist in an odd, lopsided fashion. i don’t know any other way to be.
Etikett: :negative
In this moonlight state of mind, forlorn and yet euphoric, I went on weeping.
Ryūnosuke Akutagawa, “Kesa and Moritō”
Maybe I’d come outside if I had someone to come outside to
I’m!! Trying!! My!! Very!! Best!!
Maybe I’ll rot here alone in my room
How to tell it’s getting bad again
- Physical pains (sore jaw, old injuries acting up)
- tired tired tired tired
- Can’t think/can’t stop thinking
- Sleeping too much/not enough
- Early waking
- Can’t make eye contact
- Picking or scratching at skin, nails, hair, etc
- Forgetful
- Sex repulsed or sex obsessed
- Lonely in crowds
- Unjustified assumptions (my friends all hate me)
- Too much/too little food
- Everything tastes bland?
- Headcolds/the flu out of nowhere
- Distancing yourself
- Spending too much time in bed
- Not showering/brushing teeth/brushing hair/taking care of your body
- Not able to do laundry
- Not turning in assignments
- Forgetting about assignments
- Zoning out
- Defensive
- Overly emotional/painfully numb
I want to share my problems, but everyone else’s problems are so much larger and important. It’s better if I just keep it to myself
Being surrounded by those who are so amazing, talented and adorable reminds me of how inadequate I really am.
I feel like I haven’t made an influence in anyone’s life… I’m just existing.
beberequin 