no you won’t start smoking, and you won’t start drinking, because you’ll regret it later, no matter how you’re feeling at the moment

i know, and i can say with 90% certainty that i won’t do either of these things, but at the moment i really want to self destruct and those things are socially acceptable self harm, which means i could get a way with it. 

but don’t worry, i’m calling a psychiatric hospital tomorrow to book an appointment, because i know these are the signs of another severe depression.

thank you for caring, it means a lot